The most beautiful sound!!

Well, yesterday was our first real appointment, which was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. As soon as we arrived, we got called back to the sonogram room. Since I'm so early on, they did a transvaginal U/S (aka the dildo cam). It was definitely not as uncomfortable as I was imagining. We got to see our little bean for the first time, and saw it's little heart just beating away! The tech even turned the sound on so we were able to hear the heart for a few seconds- it was beating at 143 bmp. Of course I completely lost it as soon as I saw our baby. She measured everything and said the baby was measuring 6w5d. Based on my LMP the dr. said I was 7w2d as of yesterday, but I knew I wasn't that far along due to my O day.

I think yesterday is when it truly hit me that we were going to have a baby. What an amazing feeling to see something growing inside you; something you've wanted so badly for so long. This is our baby, and I thank God every chance I get for giving us this opportunity, this gift.

Here is our little bean's first picture!!

7 Weeks!!

So here's my first little weekly questionare thing. (I love these) :) Our first appt. is tomorrow morning and I really don't know how I'm going to wait that long! I remember back at 4 weeks, thinking the 28th would NEVER get here. Well, here it is!! I'm so nervous and excited! If I don't throw up from my m/s tomorrow, I'll definitely lose it to nerves. Wish me luck!

**How far along? 7 weeks

**Total weight gain/loss: I'm down 2lbs. this morning, but it flutuates

**How Big is Baby?: LO is a blueberry :)

**Maternity clothes? No- I did order belly bands from Etsy. This bloat is crazy!

**Stretch marks? None yet ::crosses fingers::

**Sleep: It's okay - I have to pee all the time.

**Best moment this week: LO doubled in size. That's exciting!! Grow LO!

**Movement: Not for a while

**Food cravings: bleh. The only thing my stomach can handle is powerade. I hate food right now.

**Gender: Everyone, with the exception of my little brother, thinks it's a girl. (Including me)

**Labor Signs: Let's hope these stay away for a while!

**Belly Button in or out? In

**What I am looking forward to: Our first appt. is tomorrow!! U/S!!

**Weekly Wisdom: Try not to stress to hard: if something is going to happen, stressing won't stop it.

**Milestones: I'm still amazed I'm pregnant, let alone 7 weeks now!

...and my 7 week bloat...

6 Weeks

Sorry I'm so late... it's been a crazy week at work. Not to mention m/s hit me like a ton of bricks last weekend. All day long I feel like I'm going to puke. Fun, let me tell you. I bought Sea Bands on Monday morning, and they actually do help out a little. I haven't thrown up yet (thank God) but trust me, sometimes I think if I could actually puke I'd feel better. I know that's not the way it works though, unfortunately. Some of the ladies on 1st Tri recommended eating any kind of sour candy. I invested in some sour jolly ranchers last weekend. Okay - do NOT put a jolly rancher in your mouth when you're feeling sick. You WILL gag. I think it's because the darn thing is shaped like a toothbrush head...okay honestly I don't know why but it was terrible! I was gagging so hard I was crying! Ugh...

So here's my first "bump" picture - just a lot of bloat!

What a relief!

So we've finally done it. We sold our house! Yesterday was closing day, and what a huge relief it was. We've had so much going on lately, with trying to sell our townhouse, moving into our temporary house, finding out we are expecting and dealing with the fatigue (Which is kicking my butt hard!), and getting things in order to build our new house, all while maintaining our full time jobs. Oh, and school starts back for me in less than a month. Needless to say, we needed that load off of our shoulders.

In other news, I'm 5 weeks, 4 days today!! Our little bean will be the size of a sweet pea on Sunday! DH laughs at the comparisons each week. This week (week 5) LO was the size of a sesame seed, so I HAD to go to Arby's just to get a sandwhich with sesame seeds on it. We sat there and beamed at the fact that the sesame seed represented how big LO was. We're so weird I swear. It's amazing how excited I get at each passing day already. That's the first thing on my mind when I wake up. My first sonogram is a week from Tuesday and I'm thrilled! I really don't know exactly what to expect, but I hope we can at least see a heartbeat. (Even typing this gives me butterflies, and the most joyous, refreshing reminder of how wonderful life is.) I'll post on Monday with my 6 week bloat pictures... and believe me, the bloat is ridiculous!

::What a surreal moment::

I'm in denial. I tested three times Friday, but I couldn't see anything until 20 minutes or so passed. "It's an evaporation line". That's what I told myself over and over again, and believed. Saturday morning I POAS for a fourth time, and after 20 minutes, the line was even more faint than the previous tests. That was my confirmation that this cycle was over. Those damn internet cheapies played a cruel game with my mind.

DH and I ate breakfast and I went back upstairs to finish getting ready. I couldn't resist. For the 5th time, I tested. This time it was with a +/- test, so I knew there would be no guessing. What the hell do you know?! It was definitely a +!!! I feel to my knees and starting crying hysterically. After a good 10 minutes, I pulled myself together long enough to grab DH's "surprise" and set it at the top of the stairs. I called for him to come help me. (He always tries to help pick out my clothes, so he assumed that was what I wanted) I sat on the bed and waited while he picked up the card and box and studied it. I directed him to open the card first, which said something along the lines of, "You're going to shine at your new job", and the inside, "As if you don't shine enough already". I wrote at the bottom, "I'm so proud of you baby. I love you. A." In the box was a t-shirt that said, "Fatherhood, the toughest job you'll ever love." As soon as he opened it he teared up and grabbed me. He just kept repeating, "Is this real? Are you serious?" That was one of the most amazing moments of my life so far.

I'm in love with this child already. This is our baby, the deepest symbol of our love for one another. Thank you Lord, for you are the only one who could ever understand what this means to us. Thank you.